Some people say that red-heads have fiery tempers. That we are easily angered and cant control our tempers like other people (blondes, brunettes) can.
Maybe that's true. Maybe it isn't. But I can say for myself, that I can find it hard at times to control my emotions. Jesus, I've spent the last 18 months in and out of psychiatrists and psychologists offices to help me with the things that hamper me. I used to live in perpetual sadness. I was always miserable, even when it would seem to the world that I was happy, happy, happy! I got good at lying to everyone around me.
But not anymore.When I'm sad, I can admit it. Angry? Yep, then too! The only thing I can't let go of is needing my own way once in a while. Which is beyond childish. And at 20, I should absolutely know better!
So this is my apology to someone who gets constantly hurt by that need.
I don't intend on being so dramatic when I'm sick, and I never mean to hurt you, but I do, and I am sorry. You don't deserve the flack you get from me when I'm sick. Please understand that I get lonely and depressed and you are the only one capable of making me smile when I'm like this. I know you're not able to see me and I know you wish you could be here. I'm sorry for being a stupid head.